I’ve struggled a lot with feeling damaged, broken, and screwed up because of what the ex did to me a couple years ago and how I trusted him implicitly with my everything, how I was blindsided, how he ripped away so many things from me. I’m left alone with my thoughts quite often, and I analyze it a lot. While I pin blame on him, undoubtedly, I often focus more on myself and what it means for the future, and how I fall short on overcoming it all. It is time for change and change will be for the best and I have grown stronger. I am not broken, or damaged. I am still me. I wont be held back by past emotions.
The moment where I made that connection, and the dots lined up for me, resulted in a weight lifted off my shoulders. Maybe I can finally stop focusing on searching and searching and searching endlessly for what’s wrong with me, what caused him to leave me, what I can do better next time. Maybe what I’ve desperately been trying to figure out, has been driven by the wrong question the whole time.
Dear Ex, I finally see, and the clarity is a comforting picture – it’s not me, it’s you. I have gained so much without you, and move forward knowing I am stronger. I am amazon warrior princess rawrrrrrrrrrr!
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